“BA-nya CONOCO katanya 4 juta. Padahal oil company.”

”Eh MT-nya Niaga katanya paling oke lho. Kalau lulus dari situ daya jual lo jadi tinggi banget.”

”Kalo di Freeport katanya pulang-pergi nya lewat daerah konflik ya? Tapi kan fasilitasnya gila banget.”

”Ah gw mah gaji 3-4 juta juga gpp. Asal kerjanya kantoran, gk dibawa pulang. Jadi gw masih bisa ngurusin usaha gw.”

”Senior gw dialokasiin di Schlumberger Venezuela. Enak juga ya. Tapi nguli kali kerjanya.”

”Senior gw di Accenture, masuk tahun lalu, 8 digit tuh gajinya. Eh McKinsey katanya lagi buka lowongan. Segitu juga gk ya?”

”Eh Deutsche Bank ada company presentation ya tanggal 16 ntar?”

Percakapan kaya tadi entah kenapa sangat intens gw denger belakangan ini. Rasanya angkatan gw mulai panik dan bergerilya untuk mendapatkan sebuah job offer. Ya wajar sih, kami kan mahasiswa tingkat 4 (merasa tua.. tua.. tua..). Banyak di angkatan gw yang mengincar untuk lulus di bulan Juli. Pilihan yang baru populer sejak angkatan 2003 banyak yang lulus di periode itu. Dulu sih, kepikirannya lulus Oktober atau malah Maret. Karena bulan Juli kan waktunya liburan. Jadi lulus di bulan itu artinya tidak akan mengalami arak – arakan yang ramai. Gw sih suka sekali dengan tradisi arak – arakan di kampus saya. Apalagi kalau melihat push-up berantai yang kadang – kadang dilakukan jurusan – jurusan timur itu. Menarik.. Yeah, I have to admit that I have a thing for push-up. I don’t know, it’s just look so manly.. :P Sampai – sampai gw mengorbankan seorang teman untuk menvideokan adegan push-up di wisuda Oktober 2007 kemaren. Ternyata bisa gw liat di vcd lfm dengan angle yang lebih baik, hehe.. Maaf ya Buddy..

Tuh kan gw emang gk fokus, seperti komentar yang selalu dilontarkan teman gw. Tadinya kan mo ngomongin soal job searching. Pencarian kerja ini sampai membuat gw dan Nurul merasa kami akan menjadi banci career days. Sampai saat ini sih, kami sudah ditolak mbak –mbak di stand Total dan HSBC 2X gara2 status undergraduate kami. Dan lagi – lagi gara – gara gosip adanya sistem blacklist di Total, akhirnya gw gk jadi masukin resume. Di kampus, sejak awal minggu ini sehari gw bisa diajakin 3 orang berbeda ke GKU Timur buat daftar PCD. Hehe, sementara gw dan Agus malah memikirkan untuk berbagi password sajah. Hemat :P .

Kalo dipikir, gila juga ya apa yang harus gw lakukan smester ini. Beginilah kira – kira daftarnya :

   1.Ngerjain TA yang draft bab 1-3 nya pun belum – belum juga gw kasih ke calon pembimbing gw karena alasan gw lagi gk mood bimbingan. Padahal bikin modelnya aja masih mengawang – awang. Sementara, sebelum bisa meng-apply buat TA di BI, draft itu musti udah jadi. Hhh, bayanginnya cape euy.. Tapi lulus di bulan Juli terus dilanjutkan jalan – jalan ke China pada masa – masa Olimpiade terlihat SUNGGUH menyenangkan.

   2.les toefl atau ielts atau apapun untuk meningkatkan skill bahasa inggris gw yang rasanya menurun dari waktu SMA dulu. Hmm, ini salah satu alasan juga kenapa blog ini ada. Biar gw punya tempat untuk latihan menulis dalam bhs inggris dimana hasilnya bisa dilihat dan dicerca semua orang. Koreksi – koreksi teman – teman gw itu terbukti membangun kok.

   3.Belajar.. Belajar.. Belajar.. biar gk ngerepotin Febri, Rahmat, dan Abid..

  4.Kemudian mencari kerja yang bisa mengakomodir kebutuhan finansial dan emosional gw, dimana rasanya susah gwdapatkan di industri manufaktur. He, yang kebayang adalah disana gw harus menghabiskan 8 jam sehari di bangunan pabrik yang penuh mesin dan conveyor, yang biasanya gelap seperti tidak ada cahaya kehidupan, dengan berbagai alarm yang mungkin akan berbunyi setiap saat. Berlebihan sih.. Tapi gw sih mendingan di rig sekalian. Rasanya mungkin akan lebih seru. Walaupun kata Bie, dia tidak menyarankan gw kerja di rig karena khawatir dengan sexual harrasment-nya. Tapi kan salary-nya sungguh sangat menarik. Atau kerja di bank. Yah BI dengan tunjangan – tunjangan-nya itu menarik, apalagi dengan seleksi seru luar biasa yang dilalui 5x oleh kenalan teman gw sampai baru bisa dia tembus. Menantang.. Atau bank internasional yang program MT-nya bisa bikin gw jalan – jalan ke luar negeri? Hehe, topik ingin kerjaan seperti apa ini selalu menarik untuk menjadi part of lunch gossip.

   5.Nyari – nyari model kebaya, cari bahan kebaya, cari tukang jahit (berharap Anne Avanti mau ngasih diskon 90% kalo gw nunjukin kartu mahasiswa), yah ini kerjaan menarik untuk dilakukan kalo lagi ingin lari dari kebosanan ngurusin TA.

   6.Lalu mencari PW? Haha, gonna skip this.. Rasanya sedang tidak into dengan kegiatan mencari PW atau pasangan wisuda ini. Toh bahkan gw saja perlu tiket lebih untuk memasukkan keluarga besar saya itu ke Sabuga. Juga karena sekarang saya sedang menjalankan program ’belajar-kuat-sendiri’ (Cong, gw yakin gw bisa ko).

Hmm, semester ini walaupun dijalani dengan 11 sks tapi tampaknya akan jauh lebih berat dari semester 5 dengan PTI I + Abau itu. Jadi, gw akan berdoa agar bisa berada di akhir semester ini dengan mental yang tetap sehat.. Dan semoga Tuhan menunjukkan jalan yang TERBAIK buat gw.. Apapun itu.. Guess that i’m just gonna need to trust HIM.

Tersebutlah suatu perlombaan keilmuan TI yang diadakan oleh TI-UI bernama LKTI. Untuk mengikuti lomba ini, satu universitas hanya dapat mengirimkan dua tim perwakilannya. Nah, ternyata ada 9 tim yang tertarik mengikuti lomba ini dari TI-ITB. Jadi diadakanlah sebuah seleksi internal. Tahun lalu, seleksi internal diadakan dalam bentuk membuat paper. Tahun ini, karena tema Environment & Energy yang diusung maka pembuatan paper akan sulit diadakan karena sulitnya mencari dosen TI yang berkompeten dalam bidang itu dan dapat menilai paper tsb. Lalu, dibuatlah sebuah forum berisi ke-9 tim yang ada untuk membicarakan teknis seleksi internal dan tim mana yang akan diajukan untuk mewakili TI-ITB. Forum dimulai jam 5 sore di HIM. Setelah rapat 3 jam yang melelahkan. Membicarakan kelayakan tim – tim yang ada, menganalisis semua kemungkinan teknik seleksi yang ada, dari bikin paper, seleksi IPK, voting.. akhirnya dipilihlah cara UNDIAN.. A bit freak, isn’t it? Hmm, tapi siapa juga yang sanggup membuat paper begadang semaleman di minggu pertama semester dimana mood kuliah belum terkumpul seluruhnya? Lalu.. Lalu.. Lalu.. Keluarlah dua nama tim.. Salah satunya tim 2..

Yup, that’s my team number. We win.. Haha, sebenarnya kata menang kurang pantes dipake disini. Let just say, we’re lucky. Tapi keberuntungan itu kan sebagian dari skill juga. Ada tangan Tuhan bekerja disana. Hmm, tapi mau mendengar excuse apapun.. Rasanya masih ada yang mengganjal. Semua ini fair. Ini yang diinginkan forum. Dan jika bukan saya yang terpilih, saya pasti akan menganggap tim yang terpilih memang berhak. Tapi.. Ketika sayalah yang terpilih sekarang, saya tidak puas. Saya masih ingin kami terpilih karena memang kami kompeten. Asumsi bahwa semua tim punya kompetensi sama rasanya menjadi tidak adil. Saya yakin kok ada tim yang merasa dan memang memiliki kompetensi lebih dari yang lain. Dan mungkin sekali ada yang tidak puas dengan hasil ini. Dan inilah yang mengganjal. Saya ingin memuaskan semua pihak. Saya ingin menang berdasar atas semua kriteria yang membuktikan kami memang layak. Tapi, ya ini sudah terjadi. Toh selama proses itu saya memang tidak berdoa untuk menang ataupun kalah. Saya berdoa untuk hasil terbaik. Karena saya sendiri tidak yakin apa yang saya inginkan. Do i really wanna win that? Sampai sekarang pun saya masih tidak yakin. Tapi, seperti kata Rahmat, teman se-tim saya, kita sudah sejauh ini.. Hmm, forum 3 jam itu memang malah mungkin lebih melelahkan dari kompetisi sebenarnya nanti.. Hehe.. So, we’re gonna try our best.. Agar tidak mengecewakan semua pihak nantinya..

After reviewing the book. I remember a case-story. About a girl who realized that this guy in her life just not into her like she hopes. A best friend of mine has been in a-best-friend-kind relationship with a guy. My friend was considering an option and she discussed it with this guy. Then he asked my friend whether she still could be his ‘substitute’ or not if she took this option (I can’t tell u what the option is, it’s private). Heard the word ‘substitute’, my friend realized that there’s something wrong in her relationship. She listed down her thoughts. Here are some items on her list :

  • They kinda made a statement that they’re just good friends, but this guy flirted a lot.. At least, in my friend’s opinion. She didn’t sure whether the guy really tried to hit on her or it just her feeling and this guy always treats all her girl-friends like that. But both of the options are bad. If he’s really trying to hit on her then say it out loud, don’t always say the we’re-just-friend kind of statements. If he always treats all her girl-friend like that, then she just doesn’t agree with this style. It could reaaaaaally leads to misapprehension. Or is this what this guy wanting?
  • He made a promise, crossed it, came again another time, twisted the conversation so my friend won’t bother about the promise. He made a mistake. Didn’t apologize. Twisted conversation again.. And on.. And on.. But my friend just never forgets. And right then all the crossed promises, mistakes were flashing back in her mind.
  • He bullied this girl. He seems always found a way to make this girl fells not comfortable with herself. Especially when he had bad emotion that day. He made issues about my friend’s intelligence, skills, mental health. He made comments about my friend’s body. And he even doubted her understanding about religion. And these things are not healthy. It made her frustrated, angry. He doesn’t have any rights to humiliate her. To belittle her. Does he need to feel superior by mocking others? She just doesn’t need a friend like that.

 

After making this list, she tried to make a conclusion. Maybe, he’s just not into her. Not into as a boyfriend, of course. And also not into as a friend. Friendship is supposed to be about comfort. And sometimes she didn’t find it. Yeah, they also had really much fun together, but maybe it’s just worth to be remembered… And pride is worth more than that.

 

Then she made a harsh decision. Now, she’s starting to leave the relationship. For good.. She can’t be a substitute anymore. She needs the permanent-full-time-job. A full time girlfriend. A full time best friend. If she’s not getting this from this guy, there’re must be another person that she will find in another corner.. And she just can’t stand to be around this guy anymore. The more she involves with the guy, the more bad thoughts and feelings she has. She feels awful about her decisions. She feels so arrogant. Ruining up a good relationship because she couldn’t control her feeling. If she remembering the good times they had, she feels like a bad person. She knows that someday she will be regret her decision to throw away a good friend like him, but right now, it feels so DAMN right. So, dear my friend, good luck. May the force (always) be with you..

 

PS : Sorry again about the messy grammar, vocabulary, and others. I’m in a learning process to sharpen my writing skills J. Please do let me know if you found any mistakes. Thanks for stopping by..

This is my first post in English. Sorry about the messy grammar, vocabulary, and others. Please do let me know if you found any mistakes. Thx..

the book and my naked kitty the book and my naked kitty

This post is about a book that my friend and I found in PeriPlus Setiabudi. The book itself, ever appeared on The Oprah Show and wrote by 2 writers from the Sex n The City TV series. A great show that famous from its incisive observation about men and relationship. The whole book tries to tell us the symptoms about a man that you’ve been dating but he’s just not into you. Wrote from 2 perspectives, Liz’s perspective as a single New Yorker woman and Greg’s perspective as a normal man. This book has a special purpose, to make women around the globe realize when to stop waiting and hoping for a guy.

1st chapter. He’s Just Not That Into You If He’s Not Asking You Out

There are so many excuses women make. Maybe he doesn’t want to ruin the friendship. The fact is, guys don’t mind messing up a friendship if it could lead sex or meaningful romance. If they want something, they can’t stop themselves, they want more. Maybe he just wants to take it slow. If they truly like you and wants to take it slow, he will let you know immediately. He won’t keep you guessing, because he’ll want to make sure you don’t get frustrated and go away. So who cares what his deal is. If he’s not asking you out, you shouldn’t start obsessing with him. Move on and meet someone else

2nd chapter. He’s Just Not That Into You If He’s Not Calling You

If someone said he will call you, then forgot to call you, ask yourself a question : Don’t u want a guy who’ll forget about all other things first before he forgets about you? My suggestion is don’t be with a guy who doesn’t do what they say they’re going to do. No matter how busy he is, if he truly likes you, he would love to hear your sound even just for a minute a day. If he were into you, a phone-chat will become a bright intermezzo in his busy days. Unless he doesn’t know how to use the telephone machines.

NOTE : Maybe this could also apply for another medium of telecommunication. See, how cheap we are. We even tolerate SMS, YM messages.. So if a guy’s not giving you any news so he’s just not into you. Don’t into him too much..

3rd chapter. He’s Just Not That Into You If He’s Not Dating You

Hanging out is not dating. There are no futures in friend-with-benefit kind of relationship. It just bullshit things created by them who just afraid to let go the fun if they’re committing in a serious relationship. Better than nothing is a thought that you should be shame about. The relationship supposed to be declared, claimed. There wont be gray areas, vagueness, and unidentified if he’s really into you. There’s a guy out there who will want to tell you he’s your boyfriend. Quit goofing around and go find him.

4th chapter. He’s Just Not That Into You If He’s Not Having Sex With You

Haha.. skip this.. It’s not compatible with this country’s culture. In contrary, He’s Just Not That Into You If He’s Having Sex With You.

5th chapter. He’s Just Not That Into You If He’s Having Sex With Someone Else

IT’S AS CLEAR AS IT IS.. DUMP HIM.. LEAVE HIM.. CURSED HIM WITH VOODOO DOLL.. I MEANT IT

6th chapter. He’s Just Not That Into You If He Only Wants to See You When He’s Drunk

An “I Love You” under an influence of alcohol won’t hold up in a court.. Or in life..

7th chapter. He’s Just Not That Into You If He Doesn’t Want to Marry You

Marriage is a tradition that has been imposed on us. So, it’s not a wrong thing if you want it but your guy doesn’t. Love can cures commitment-phobia. So what other reasons stored? Financial problem? There’re people living under the bridge and still manage to get married. “Doesn’t want to get married” and “doesn’t want to get married to you’ is two different things. Be sure which category he falls under.

8th chapter. He’s Just Not That Into You If He’s Breaking Up With You

Someone broke up with you and now he calls you everyday. Leaving those “I miss you” messages.. Hmm, cut him off. Let him miss you. It’s his fault. Handle this breakup thing in classy way.. No crazy way.. Stop breaking into his friendster accounts and checking all messages that he has.. Stop using spy buddy to check if his messenger-status is invisible to you or not :P .. Stop spying on every girl that your friend saw walking with your ex. Don’t wasting your time trying to make him realizes that you’re great and he made big mistake. Because you are.. With or without him realizing it..

9th chapter. He’s Just Not That Into You If He’s Disappeared on You

He’s gone.. Poof. Vanished into thin air. No SMS, phone messages, email, or even Post It messages left. If he’s not going to Hogwarts School of Witchcraft & Wizardry and trying to get an Apparation license but somehow transported to Jupiter or If he hadn’t have a car accident and somehow get amnesia, then it clear that he’s so not into you. He has no interest in going out with you anymore and doesn’t have the guts to tell you that. Coward..

10th chapter. He’s Just Not That Into You If He’s Married (and Other Insane Variations of being Unavailable)

He just an insane-two-faces-asshole.. There’s a quote I love from this chapter.. No matter how real and powerful your feelings maybe for someone, if that person can’t fully and honestly return them and therefore actively return them, these feelings mean NOTHING. This quote strengthens my opinion that it’s not only tango that needs two.. love also takes two..

11th chapter. He’s Just Not That Into You If He’s a Selfish Jerk, a Bully, or a Really Big Freak

If you really love someone, you want to do things that make them happy right? A jerk that treat you awfully, a bully that’s going out his way to make you fell worthless (fat,unattractive,dumb,etc), and a porn-lover-freak are not options. Leave them. Yup, being lonely, being alone, for many people sucks. But being with somebody who makes you feel shitty or doesn’t honor the person you are, is worse.

Yup, that’s the main chapters of this funny and hilarious book. I also added my opinions there. It suits you if you are a cynical feminist that always thought that all men are jerks. It will also suit you if you are dreamy girl that always thought that the man you’ve been dating is a perfect-prince-charming-that-God-especially-made-for-you but the real fact is he always makes excuses, finds a way to point out your flaws, or cheats on you (sorry,Rul :P ).

The conclusion I made is that we have to deal with men as they are, not how we’d like them to be. We don’t have to make excuses about their action. Men are not complicated although they would love you to think they are. And they don’t send mixed messages. It’s our mind that mixed things up. Think pessimistic, and also skeptic, are better way of thinking in this field, because it could prevent you from a hard-heart-break. Haha..

 

Berawal dari sebuah kalimat “saya ingin menulis”..

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